I finally relented and decided to explore medication for my dysthymia (which had become a major depressive episode these past several months). It’s still early days and although I had long accepted my that my brain is just wired for sadness, I can feel myself coming back to a state where my sadness does not render me incapable of doing my mundane day to day activities. Baby steps and all of that. My body has adjusted to the medication and all but one of the side-effects has subsided — I can no longer wake up earlier than 6:30 am. Which is strange because I have spent most of my life being a morning person; I usually wake up at around 5 am. Hopefully this is the beginning of me bouncing back and sorting out my life.