This weekend I did something terribly stupid. I was reckless, irrational and I let my intoxicated self commit something I wouldn’t do sober. Alcohol really does cloud one’s judgement, I crossed the line and ended my life as I know. Nothing will be the same after what went on last night, my life was spinning out of control before but now I have totally lost control of it. I was irresponsible and deserve whatever is coming to me. I hope the people affected can find it in themselves to forgive me.

Also, I really need to stop doing this to myself. Indulging in risky behaviour just to feel alive is way too Amy Winehousish, My parent raised me too well for this. I need to find myself again and quit all this bullshit.